Counting

PMR is less than 20 days away!!!!

I should be freaking out like crazy now, right?

Strangely, I'm not.

Something's wrong with me.

Very, very wrong.

I feel pressure, but somehow I don't think it's to the magnitude it should be.

Does that make sense to you?

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I actually want to feel stressed.

It would make me study more.

But no...

Instead, I'm not focusing!

It's not that I don't try to study.

I do!

But when I open a book, I can do it, but the info doesn't stick.

So there's really no point in doing exercises if you're not gonna remember it!!!

On a more cheerful note, my trial results were "okay" as my mother put it.

I think it is, too.

But not good enough.

I didn't manage to get 8A's.

I only have 2 subjects left to score in.

But I have to admit, both those subjects were very close to getting a A.

So close, and yet so far...

All I know is, my Science, Maths, Geo and English are consistent.

The rest are just going up and down.

So I really don't know what to expect for PMR.

Hopefully straight A's.

Insya-Allah...

=)

This feels good.

I haven't blogged in a while, haven't I?

I just can't find the time anymore.

Though I have a lot to write about.

But.. somehow I can't find the right words to express them.

Oh well. I guess my mind's too jumbled up now.

Hope everything will be straightened out soon.

Oh!

Just yesterday, a very interesting (and funny) thing happened at school.

I won't post it here, because it's simply too long. (plus, I'd have to correct the grammar, and I just don't have the time and energy to do it)

You should read it.

It's on my class blog.

Enjoy! =)

I think that's all for now.

To all PMR candidates, good luck!

20 days and counting. O.O

10 minutes, and I'm busy

First of all, I didn't expect them to choose me.

Secondly, I didn't expect them to make me do work so fast.

Thirdly, I still can't really believe it.

Do you know what I'm getting at?

I'm kinda scared to mention it.

Its still sinking in for me..

It's nothing big exactly, on a general scale.

But its HUGE for me.

You know, if you read this nice and slowly, and you have no idea what I'm talking about..

You should be going mad with suspense and curiosity.

Or not. I don't know.

Did you?

Am I killing you with this?

Does it matter?

I don't know.

I don't know anything right now.

It's still hard for me to accept it.

Hmm...

I'll just tell you.

You won't be all "OMG!!!"

No, no, no.

That won't happen.

It's not exactly that exciting either.

It's just news.

Okay, okay.

Today was the AGM for KRS...

That's all...

Guess what?

The seniors elected me to be Naib Setiausaha.

At first.

Then, the one up-ed me to be Setiausaha.

Why?

The initial one wasn't reliable enough to show up every week.

And I was.

So they gave the position to me instead.

Then they gave me the work to do.

I had to write the report and check the form 3's koko books against the mastercard.

Normal. But it was a bit confusing, since it was my first time.

That's all really.

See?

I told you.

Nothing big. =)

Assembly + Panic attack = Many concerned people

One thing that I don't get why it happened.

It was completely unexpected.

I guess it was a good thing assembly was out in the tennis court today. I wouldn't have wanted the teachers to see me crouch to the ground.

I still can't believe it though.

It was like any other day, we walked in the tennis court for morning assembly.

Suddenly, I felt really faint and everything was spinning. I tried to hold on abit longer, but when Pn Ann took over them mic, I just couldn't take it anymore.

So I sat.

Then, my hands went completely numb.

And that's how my panic attack came.

I mean, who wouldn't be freaked out when this happens to you?

What more, I had an exam! I wasn't gonna miss this for anything!

I started wheezing and tears just sprang into my eyes. I couldn't help it at all. I just felt like crying. And my hands were so numb, I couldn't feel them. It was so hard to move them.

All the prefects near me were asking,

"Do you wanna go the sick room?" over and over again.

I did say no, but they couldn't hear me. I guess my voice didn't want to come out. So I just kept shaking my head. Maybe that didn't help the dizziness, now did it?

Sonia was like, "Intan, are you okay? Are you okay?"

She was seriously worried.

I gotta appreciate that, though. =)

Walking was okay for me, but I needed some support from Sonia.

Once we were in class, the numbness in my hands still didn't go away.

Foong and Dian were looking at me like they were really worried. But I said I was fine and took out my BM book. Had to test.

Luckily, my hands were okay when I practised writing a bit in the exercise book. So that's when the wheezing lessened.

End of panic attack.

Strangely, it was hard for me to keep awake. So I ended up sleeping halfway through the time. But I did finish the paper first. Duh..

I slept during KH and paper 2 for BM too. I honestly don't know why.

When I got home (by bus, no one was staying back for Interact) I told my mom about it, and she said the faintness and numbness was caused by low blood pressure. She said I wasn't eating right or something. But I can't help it if the food in school isn't appealing to me at all! I eat breakfast, but 1 piece of bread probably isn't enough.

She said the numbness came because there wasn't enough blood to go to the extremities, like the ends of my hands or legs. Or something like that.

But I'm getting sick. Like, seriously. My stomach hurts like crazy, I have no appetite, my headaches are getting worse, all I wanna do is sleep...

But I can't bring my self to stay home. Not this week. Next week, maybe. Who knows. Maybe I'll be better by then.

Now I'm just hoping I'll be okay enough for English and Maths tomorrow. Help me. =(

Exams.

Intervensi 3 around the corner.

I hope I do better than my last exam.

Just hope and pray.

Allah, help me get through this.

Good luck to everyone else too!

=)

Mixtures of stuff.

Today was pretty fun, admittedly.

First of all:

Prefectorial campaigning and elections

Who knew our Form 4's were so entertaining. >.<'"

Their posters were okay, especially Carven's.

M&Ms!!! =D

Size does not matter.

Anyway, I like the hand phone one. Sorry, I'm not sure what your name is..

You rock. Simply put.

I think I voted for like, 15 people. I just chose whoever I actually remembered. One thing my dad always says is you have to make an impact on people. If not, you'll be easily forgotten. Like most of the candidates today. Sorry to say la. Hope our next batch of prefects were chosen wisely and appropriately. Like what Pn. Nancy said: Don't vote based on popularity!!! She practically screamed that into the microphone. Well guess what, sometimes the good ones are popular. Actually, most of the time the good ones are popular. That's why they're popular to begin with. They're nice and smart and hardworking etc.

So yeah. I think that's enough on the prefects-to-be.

On the next one:

Birthday cupcakes!

Dian brought them to celebrate the birthdays in June.

The list:

Afiqah

Aida

Nadhra

Divya

Denielle

Raveenaa

Me

Alini

A lot right? Instead of celebrating them a few times, might as well do it all at once. Much more cheerful that way. The cupcakes were gooood. =)

Dian, you rock.

And the next: (don't worry this is the last)

Interact meeting.

Like almost every week (or at least every meeting we have) we just sit, listen to Pn. Sarjit talk about how we should be more active and bla bla bla.

So after that, it was almost 2.15. She said that Pn. Chee needed help to move desks and chairs from this abandoned room to this old classroom that people use for meetings only. 

They were so freaking dusty and disgusting. My hands were grey by the time everything was taken care of. But all that work was worth it. We can claim extra attendance marks from Pn. Sarjit if we need it later in the year.

So its all good.

That should be it.

Oh yeah! I wonder what Malik's gonna do to make up for forgetting my birthday. We'll just wait and see.

June

Guess what?

It's my birthday. =)

So far: not very interesting.

But I am gonna go out soon. So maybe things will let up there.

I feel happy, (sorta) but also sad (that I'm basically gonna be relatively alone on my birthday.) Again.

Though I may not be suffering or under privileged or anything, I am sorta unlucky in a way that affects me emotionally and mentally.

But I know my family's gonna be there. So that's one thing I can count on.

In other news (since I haven't been updating lately) my results for mid-term are...okay, but I'm not exactly that happy with it.

I have 5A's, 1 B and 2 C's. 

The worst part?

The C's are for KH and Agama, and if only I had one more correct answer, I would've gotten B's instead. 

Just one more mark.

The only B I have is for BM, btw. I can understand that. Not really surprised, but I did improve, if only by a little bit. So I'm satisfied with that.

Not so bad this time. But I know I could've done better. Maybe next time. =)

That's all for now. Not much, but I can't think of anything else to write.

Bye bye!

Sad. Sad. SAD.

I've been very unhappy lately. Haven't really been smiling that much.

Must be because of exams. Stress and all that.

I haven't been studying properly at all!

So yeah, you can expect very not-so-excellent results from me this time.

Other than that, I don't know why I'm not happy. Something's nagging at me. I can't figure out what..

I have no idea what to write here anymore. My life's back to being very routine and..boring.

Tootles. =)